Iโm fighting a battle. No one else can see. Itโs not against someone else but rather the demons inside of me. Itโs been going on for years now and iโm slowly losing this fight.
No matter how late i stay up at night, i try my best to be strong to fight my inner battles and still pretend nothingโs wrong but everyday is a little harder.
Iโm tired of waking up because the nightmare never ends and the voices never stop. My heart is getting tired from beating all the time. It canโt compete with my restless mind.
My heart breaks with every word i hear the ones i whisper to myself when i think no one is around to hear. As i think of everytime iโve been left alone, been forgetten or left behind because iโm not important enough for them to stay behind.
Everytime iโm a dissapointment which is every single day, how iโm never good enough despite giving my everything, faking my smiles just to get me through the day then crying myself to sleep because i hate everything i ever am. I finally have realized but with a hidden battle. I end up all alone but itโs better this way cause no one stays anyways
