Being by yourself has a price too.

Everybody says it's okay to be alone and do things by yourself. That it's okay to not depend. And it is. There are some things you have to figure out on your own. Like, the knowledge, relationship and feelings you have of you. It is important to know who you are and accept what others might not about yourself.

But there's this thing...

When you are all alone and never with someone. When it's not about making time for yourself but about making time for others. The other extreme. When you are so used to being with yourself that you've become antisocial.

What about you?

No one tells you how to reach out. Only that you can. Socializing is important too. As humans we are communicative creatures. We seek closeness and interaction. We need it for our well-being. But some don't have a close enough person to talk to. They don't know how to start a conversation that's more than small talk. They can't bring themselves to get too close. They are the reality of the imaginative:

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It is easy to make friends when you are a kid because you don't get into a relationship with prejudice. But how do you do that as a grown up? Can you?

You have to.

Because if it's not someone else to break your heart, it'll be you. And that's much worse. You stay at night with only your thoughts' invasion and there is no one to distract you. What's worse, you can't stop thinking about not having anyone. You're so pathetic, no one stays in your life. Or, no one is interested enough to dig deeper and realize there is more to you than silence and awkwardness.

You try and you try to make something out of a newfound meet and greet but that's all you can do. Obviously, it's not all those people that are the problem. It's certainly you. And, also, people will say that something has to change. They'll say that making mistakes is okay as long as you don't make the same mistake twice. As long as you don't use the same strategy again. But, how many people have to pass by so that the right ones can stay?

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How much energy do you have left? You pretend that you're independent and strong enough to do it all by yourself and while you've proven that, it is just in the human nature to create bonds.

I don't know how to do that either. I'm just telling you it's okay to depend!


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