I don't think,
I ever felt
like this
before.

And still,
it is not,
what I have felt
before.

It felt different
all those
other times.

How should I know
that it is real
that this is
how I am supposed
to feel.
Now.

And is this
what I will
feel
later?

Can I even
be sure
there is a
later?

Because
it felt different
all those
other times.

-N.