I don't think,
I ever felt
like this
before.
And still,
it is not,
what I have felt
before.
It felt different
all those
other times.
How should I know
that it is real
that this is
how I am supposed
to feel.
Now.
And is this
what I will
feel
later?
Can I even
be sure
there is a
later?
Because
it felt different
all those
other times.
-N.
