I'm writing this to express how I'm feeling and hopefully to find someone else who feels this way.

I am a hard worker, a perfectionist and could be described as a dork. But right now, I feel underappreciated.

I just finished five years of uni. I completed a double degree and I finished with high results. It was really hard work, and I pushed myself so much so that I could get those high results. And at the end of it all, no one cared. I didn't make a big deal about it with my family because I knew my sister had her uni exam the next day, but I really did want to celebrate. I wanted some acknowledgement and excitement from them that I am the first person in my family to study and receive a uni degree. I don't really have many friends either and my best friend is overseas so he wasn't there for me either. I am really proud of my efforts and wish someone else could be too.

I was finally free of my studies and planned an exciting day trip and wanted to do all these things to celebrate my new found freedom. And then, my sister was hospitalised and had emergency surgery. So I spent my time worrying about her and couldn't go out and do the things I wanted because I didn't want her to feel bad. But now, my holidays is over and I didn't get to do anything I wanted to because again my sister came first.

Now I will be starting an internship at some big time company, and thousands of people apply for this position and I got it, and again, no one cared. My dad's being complaining that he isn't feeling well and because of that he won't have special dinner with me. My sister doesn't care, she still leads that uni life and has to study. And when I told my mum and thought maybe she would be excited for me, the ONLY THING she had to say was, "what time do you start?". No freaking excitement from her at all. Why don't they understand? Why can't they be happy for me?

Now to top if off I just got offered honours at the uni. A scholarship to continue for another year because I have done so well in my studies. And nobody freaking cares. I just want my parents or my best friend to recognise this is a big deal. These things, results, jobs and honours offers aren't just handed to people. I had to work hard and beat out so many other people to be in this position. And these people aren't there for me. They don't understand. They don't want to celebrate any of my achievements. And I keep putting what they want first. And because of that I am still a loser.