what do you do
when the only thing you
truly want
is to not exist
to cut off all your limbs
for their sole existence
makes you want to
rip your head off
to throw up
for opening your eyes
to see whats around you
makes you want to
kill your eyes
to tear yourself apart
for everything
makes you want
to sleep you troubles away
and that you cannot do
how do you
how can you
you just do
for there is
no other option
than life or death
and death scares you
just like anyone else
but you most certainly
do not want this
that others call
so you let those two tears
fall down your cheeks
try to stop
about ripping your limbs
and throwing up
for those are not options
there rarely are any
in this thing
some call