You feel nothing. You feel like nothing's right, like you won't do it. You feel like you won't survive this. You say life sucks, you say you want to die.
But I'll tell you something: You matter. You matter and you're loved. If you're here now, that's because you are wanted. You are made to exist. I don't know if you believe in God, but there's a Being who wanted you to be here, to do great things. Yes, exactly, you can do great things.
You are unique, you are made to be yourself. Please, don't give up. Stay strong, have faith, have hope. You are special and nobody will be you if it's not you. You can't be replaced. You are you and that's beautiful, that's enough.