A year is the longest instant there can be, and I'm about to look back.
A) Come along B) Exit this article
The choice is yours.
If you choose A hi angel, last week I started a series of articles reading reflecting on my old online diary entries. As the New Year is almost here and there's only one month of this year left I thought it would be a good idea to think about all the lessons I've learned and what has changed.
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I think this practice is beneficial not only for me but for all of us. I would encourage you to do the same thing, believe me, you will be surprised to see how far you've come for where you were in the past.
🌬November 17 (2017)
"Every hit gets harder and harder so hard and I realize that’s what I haven’t been seeing for so long it’s real and it hurts so much
“Say it as it would hurt her"
Yeah it’s just a role it’s just theater but there’s truth behind it for me I don’t need him to say it as to hurt me it already hurts and it’s so bad but people create beautiful things when they are hurt and maybe my success will amount to this he was the one who built me up let me gain confidence and learn to believe in myself and he is the one that breaks me down part by part every single day.
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he takes away small piece and feels like all the love slowly sucked out replaced by cold heart and strive for success that’s exactly what I need I’m thankful to him that he doesn’t care that’s exactly what I need to harden enough to break everything in my way it feels horrible but it’s gonna be good it’s what I need when all my feelings are gone I’ll be left stone hard which will help me be more goal-oriented and a robotic machine chasing after what I want"
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last year at this exact time I was playing a fight scene with my crush in which he was my husband who I was in love with, but he couldn't care less about me. In other words, it was an accurate description of our current situation.
What I think when I read this passage is that I was almost on the correct path. Though I was way more aggressive about it and it all came from a place of hurt. However, what was right was the feeling that I had to switch focus, do my own thing and become amazing at it.
Where t should be coming from is a place of self-love and self-development, not the desire to appear heartless as a cold machine. It has to be coming from the actual passion and drive.
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So if you have someone who brings you down or something that brings you down. Something you want to have and cat get, or someone you have a crush on and they don't feel the same way, think about what makes you feel happy to be alive. What is it that you are passionate about doing and when is it that your light shines through you as you do it? think about that thing and focus on that thing. Focus on your passion. We all have one and it is when we are engaged in our passions that our light truly shines and that is how we focus on yourself instead of that person or that thing, that is how we find our light.
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This though doesn't have to come from a place of "left stone hard which will help me be more goal-oriented and a robotic machine" but a place of self-development, not heartlessness. Because becoming heartless will harm you in a log run not anyone else. It is your heart you are freezing. I had to learn this the hard way, but now it is a lesson learned. A lesson that I'm proud to propose to you today.
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thanks to anyone who read this article I love you so much, you're amazing, talented and beautiful. Remember there is nothing you can't do, and if someone doesn't like you it's their problem.
- So (lo)n(g) and go(o)d night -Angelinp(u)rga(t)ory
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