Oh, this is
so weird,
so scary.

What have I
gotten myself
into?

How do I
justify this
in front
of myself?

Why did I think
this was going
to be
a good idea?

I don't like
not knowing
what I do.
Not having control.

_____________________

Oh, this is
so new,
so exciting.

What could come
of all
this?

How happy
could I be
thanks to
this decision?

Why do I
just let this happen,
curious
for the outcome?

I don't know
what I'm doing,
finding myself
along the way.

How will I know what will come of this,
if I don't try?

-N.