I had a short time without writing. But today I was inspired by a wattpad fanfic book. It name is Kiara. She is famous, the eldest of the jenners, Bieber, Amber Rose, G-Eazy and Shawn Mendes ex's. And it's a crazy, strange and complicated story. But still. You fall in love with her and her imaginary protagonist.

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anxiety, darkness
maybe it's the same without you
just think that you are now
touching another sky, I'm dying

think that those delicate hands go through another skin
right now I just want to give the button "go out"

I know I am very complicated.
maybe that's why you're not
I thought that bizzle would be my life
but now he is not
explore among the rainbow
and I saw where my sexuality took me
fight with gerald. I left him when he needed me the most

and now you are
a gentleman with black hair
with your beautiful deadly weapons
which you call teeth
I remember your flushed skin after finishing running
between clouds and humidity
I found poison on your lips
and I'm afraid that is the cure for my disease
You are my vice, darling

If I am a hummingbird, then you are my pollen
If I am a pirate, you will be my treasure.
If you are a prince, then I will be your sword.
because we go, you know perfectly well that the princess will not be

I'm different from the girls in the fairy tales
I've slept for a month, and even then you do not say anything
I've slept with many, and that's no surprise
I have graduated in many ways
but you will be morphine to my pain.

because you will be the cure for my disease
Am I wrong in the head
So I have questions, for your bed
it is not normal for me to be the one to pray
neither do you think I will always
I just want to make clear, that I will always love you
I'm in love, something infatuated
and it's nobody's fault.
only Cupid who is now a traitor

and I want you to know, that if you go
Say you will not return. Because honey, you know I can never say it.
I'm weak, nothing brave. I always told you to see everyone naked.
But I could not stop shaking myself.

you're my trust issues