I just got off a 2 hour phone call and let me tell you, one of the most heartbreaking ones I've had.
The thing is, i barely know this guy. I went on a date with him yesterday and oddly enough, it was really obvious that he liked me and even admits it straight forwardly.
My first impression of him was normal, he was taller than i thought, not too tall but taller than me. I was surprised that he was so well-mannered and a gentlemen; I felt that I didn't deserve to be treated this nicely.

He constantly told me how pretty I was, and being the person I am i was shy and I took compliments very awkwardly. i appreciated it, but I couldn't look at his face straight into his eyes cause I was so shy. He held my hand because I was freezing and I admit I got flustered.

Anyways, the point topic is today's phone call. I told myself I wouldn't cry, but I just cry at everything; the smallest things even. It frustrates me how i can't control my feelings, but even though we met only once, it felt as if he knew me my whole life. He could see through me and it hit me when he told me what his first impression of me was.

"You exceeded my expectations. When I first saw you, you looked like you just wanted someone to hear you out; someone to listen to you."

After hearing those words, it felt as if I could hear my heart shatter into a million pieces. I burst into tears right away, and I just couldn't help myself. The fact that he could tell behind the smile on my face that i was hurting really shocked me. I barely know him and the fact that he said these kinds of words really touched me. He talked as if he would never leave my side and promised he would never make me cry.

That scares me. The more people i let into my life, i'm scared if i get into a relationship there is a possibility we can't go back to how things were like before. I just want to be careful.

What I am sure of is, I want to say thank you. Thank you for saying kind words to me and for being nothing but a source of motivation for me and my mental health. You don't judge me for the things i do, you understand the reason why I did them in the first place and then think outside of the box. I really never met anyone like you. So thank you.