All these pills, all these appointments, they do nothing but make me even more sad because I’m realizing that I’m truly broken. Pills and appointments aren’t going to heal the fact that I’m a fucked up child. Nothing can help, nothing can cover the fact that I’ll never be as happy as ordinary kids are. Life sucks and those two things can’t change it. I’ll never be truly happy, I’ll never smile genuinely, I’ll never mean it when I say “I’m fine”, and I’ll never be able to not cry every single night. That’s just who I am; a kid that’s struggling with life and that’ll never change. I’m sorry, but it’s the truth.