Hey everyone! I said I would keep you up to date with my crush situation, and how that was going, and I honestly haven't. But I have some news! This guy I've been friends with and "talking to" consistently every day for I think a month now, sort of just asked me out. Here's how it happened. I'm gonna spill all the tea, shishters.

So we were texting one night, like we usually do. He had just finished a band concert, and he told me that this girl had just asked him out.
I had been wanting to tell him my feelings for awhile, but I wasn't sure how to do it, or when... Or if he even liked me back.
But when he told me this girl had asked him out, I realized I was running out of time. I couldn't wait any longer, I had to tell him how I felt.
I had this note saved in my phone that I wrote in every time I thought about my feelings for him. It was never meant to be sent to him, so that put my conscience on ease when I wrote in there, because I wasn't going to sent it directly to him, right?
Well, as I tried to find the words to tell him with, I realized that I couldn't find the words. Nothing would explain my feelings better than that note.
So, what did my dumbass do?

I sent him the about three-page long note that I had been writing pretty much every day in for a week or two, after telling him I had something to confess.

Long story short, he ended up telling me that he's known about my feelings for awhile.
He just thought they'd end up fading, and i'd forget about him, and move on. Boy, was he wrong.

We're officially dating, and only told our best friends so far, but i'm super excited to see how this goes. I've never been in love before, let alone ever had a boyfriend. I've always shut the idea of love out of my life, so this is a completely new experience for me.

I am still honestly trying to process what's happening. I have a boyfriend? What are those?
How do I take care of one?
How often do I feed him???

But in all seriousness, this is a whole new experience for me, and I will try my best to keep some of the important things that happen in this relationship documented in future articles.

See you soon my loves~!

-Laurynn