im unarmed but ready for battle,evidently present but solely absent, with each tick on the clock the battle calls out louder, drowning me further into an abyss i fear i may not return, spiraling me inward, infinitely tightening without a promise ever to end, unbidden and unwanted but it never saw any resentment. I tried to escape but like a dog on a leash i could only get so far before i felt the strangling pull..............