My heart feels numb. I feel nothing in my heart I only can feel my thoughts spinning in my head. Sometimes I want to cry so I can get rid of al the endless thoughts and to clean my heart again but I can't. Now I am here living day by day. You can literally shout at my and I won't even react to it. You can hit me and I will just walk away. I don't have the energy, not anymore. Everything feels so neutral. I'm not happy but I am not depressed either. I just don't know how I feel and what to feel. The only thing I really like is talking to this person. It makes me forget about al the shitty things in this world.