explanation
i dont know. stuff is weird.

sensory overload

you were next to me
when i got my first flashback

i fell down and rolled myself up
a blank stare ahead

your warm embrace rejuvenated me
as i cried empty tears

you were next to me
when i told you how sorry i was

i told you
i wanted to hold your hand in the hallways

i told you
i wanted to court you to prom

i told you
i loved you

and you said you wanted all that too
and we were okay again

you were next to me
after i broke up with you

one month
of cold stares and meaningless hugs

i was in so much pain
and i bet you were too

i wish you were next to me
the night everything was spinning

the night i just
stopped

and let the world go

i wish you were next to me
when i cried from the noise

i wish you were next to me
when i screamed from the pressure

i wish you were next to me
still.