i don't know how i feel. the words are their but i don't know how to say them. so instead i allow the tears to fall like rivers. i thought crying would help me come to terms with you leaving me, but it just became a regular routine. i never had the chance to meet you. that's what's killing me the most. there are so many things i want to tell you, so many achievements i want you to witness. some nights i want to call you up and tell you about my worries and troubles. i want you to tell me it's going to be alright because you've got me. there are days were i want to just spend quality time with you, and laugh about memories we had made. i don't know what to do. i need you here. i need you to hold me and tell me it's going to be alright. i need you.

i miss you.