...but I'm trying.

I'm currently recovering from many mental illnesses: depression, social anxiety, general anxiety, and unspecified eating disorder connected to my anxiety. For many years I have suffered from them. My eating has been ok for about a year now and social anxiety is perfectly gone. I love being able to behave normally in social situations.

In a year I've had many events that have changed the direction of my life, and my plans and dreams were crushed. I had a drinking binge after a big setback in August, because I didn't want to feel depressed again. After spending all my money on alcohol, I had nothing.

Now I'm feeling better, but I've noticed that I've gained 15 kilograms/33 pounds in under a year, and even though a big part of it is muscle weight, I still have bigger belly and double chin and some extra fat in my back that I didn't have before. I have troubles with stopping sugar and other extra carbs. I think it has something to do with my increasing sadness and anxiety. "Tomorrow I'll do better with eating" - me every single day.

You're not alone. Yes, it's a cliche, but it's true. I know that thousands of people right now are suffering from the similar things as me. And I will get through everything. You will survive of it all.

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I keep forgetting the reason we are here. I often forget to thank God I'm alive and able to know His word. I'm so glad I've had the opportunity to get to know Him. I'm glad for you if you love God. I hope you remember to thank Him every day, and try to be as good and honest as you can. Love and appreciation is the best thing you can give to other people and to yourself.

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Thanks for reading, this was just a spontaneous idea caused by a bad mood and a few beers. I have stopped binge drinking, but I love beer so I have a few per month. And this kinda was for myself too, so in the future I can read this if I need it, or if I want to be reminded about all the things I've been through and survived.

If you need to talk, I'm here. Please don't be afraid to come and tell me your worries. Talking helps.
And get help if you need, I did it and you can do it too. It's scary at first, but everything will be okay. I promise.

Oh and by the way, I have a collection with stuff like this. Take a look if you want. It has helped me through bad days. And other days too.