I need to start over which is kind of hard with high school, trying to do my work, have a social life, get a good amount of sleep, eat healthy, and workout.
Things have taken a turn for the worse, my boyfriend, who I like a lot, he may even be my first love, cheated sort of???I'm still not 100% sure what's going on everything is moving so fast...
He's really good friends with this girl, and I knew she was having troubles with mental health, and so I was okay with them hanging out, but apparently they kissed, I confronted him about it... he said yes... it happened 4 weeks ago... some other people say it happened this past weekend, he told me she kissed him and he was so shocked he didn't have time to pull away.. so I'm not really sure what to do, and no matter how much I want to hate him, I can't I just want to hug him and cry....

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is forgiveness wrong?

I'm trying not to let this affect me, and I already forgive him, he's texted me so much since its happened, thank god it's the weekend if I still had to see him I'd have a breakdown...

I'm trying to start with as much as I can...

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I've started more self care this weekend :)
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I'm hoping to work out tomorrow...
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and then I have to finish all my homework...
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I'm trying to look ahead

I'm done feeling pity for myself, yes it's okay to cry, but I need to turn myself around.
I am good enough.
I can do it.
I will achieve my goals.
It will take time.
I will not quit.
Sometimes life gets in the way, but I'll figure things out, even if I need a little help...

One day I'll be my happiest, mads :)