So, hi this my first time doing this kind of stuff, I personally don't write my feelings out just for quite a few reasons but today I am. So lately I've been feeling so shitty like I feel so down and sensitive, I'm going to express myself even if no one is reading this. I'm a person who is so insecure about themselves not sure its because my father mentally fucked me up and got into my head or i just brought myself down, honestly it's both. Yall have no idea how much i hate my body, I'm chubby, I know I can change that and I'm slowly trying, I'm planning to open a gym membership but here's the thing, if I do lose weight I feel like that doesn't change the fact that ill still be insecure. I feel like the main reason why I feel so empty its because I overthink shit too much and I don't know how to stop that, I hate overthinking so much. I just don't know what to do. My thoughts are slowly killing me its just crazy what your mind can do to you.