actually, he never loved me. our relationship was based on lies. he kept telling me he loved me but he was actually fulfilled with thoughts about another girl.

in short, the guy who my heart was set on, ended our relationship because of a girl. a month and a half later is when i found out. how dumb was i to not realize it? how dumb was i to even compete with her? how dumb was i to fool myself that he fell in love with me?

i hate myself. every single inch of me. she's everything that i'm not. she is gold while i'm nothing. i thought i was lucky enough to think he loved me but i was just hallucinating. of course, i'm not enough. what made me think that was different?