October 2018:
I have this guy in my life and this guy was my first love. We first met in high school and I had a huge crush on him. He always made me laugh and just I admired him as person in general. He was mine and I was his but it just did not work out at the time. Then 4 years later, he came back into my life at the most perfect timing. I was so afraid of letting him into my heart because the last person I did hurt me so badly. I didn't know if I was ready. But when he held me in his arms again for the first time in 4 years, I felt like things were going to be okay. I remember the day I saw him again after so long. He walked up towards me and he had a smile on his face. That moment I have captured in my mind. I did not know that day would change my life forever. We went on a few dates and just each one made me want him to be mine more and more. 4 years later and I still felt the same way. When we became official was the day I knew that this would be my last relationship. I don't want to date anyone else. I can't imagine being with anyone else because I have never felt like this before. Nobody has ever made me feel this happy. I fell in love for the first time. I found that love that I talked about. The love that is good, pure and true. The one you read in the books... the one you watch on a screen. I found that. He only wants to see me happy. He lets me blast my favorite songs even though he is not a fan. But he lets me because he wants to see me smile. He understands or tries to understand my mental health. Dating someone with anxiety is not easy, but he makes it seem as if it is simple. I can tell him everything and he listens. Every moment we spend together I have a smile on my face. I can't help but smile when I am around him. I get a million butterflies when he wraps his arms around me and I just don't want him to let go. I feel safe and protected. He showed me what true love is. He showed me that there are good guys out there. He showed me there is such thing as unconditional love. He is the one. He is the one I will meet at the altar and vow my love to him in front of my family and friends. He is my happily ever after and dream come true.

So to my girls and guys out there that have had their heart broken or have been in toxic relationships. Know that you deserve the unconditional love. Someone who loves you on your good and bad days. Someone who never tries to change you. Someday that person will come. But first, we must say goodbye to the toxic person in our life to be able to allow a good one to come in. So to my ex boyfriend who told me " nobody will ever love you" ... you were wrong because this person does.