Welcome

Here's my first real shot at writing a blog post-esque article on this platform. Honestly, this is just a way for me to vent my feelings and get some words on paper (indirectly, I suppose). If nothing else, this experience is for myself to grow and develop, but for anyone who is willing to come along with me, welcome! For the time being, I am going to keep myself publically anonymous (more or less, at least), but if you find yourself in the words I write please reach out to me in a private message and start up a conversation! I will reply to anyone and everyone as soon as I see a message, and I invite anyone to spark conversation!

Now that this intro is out of the way, if you're still around please enjoy. xx

Lost

The thing about life right now, is I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. I'm away from home for school, yet neither here nor there feels like home anymore. I feel like I'm sludging through the grey area of becoming an adult and I have yet to find my place in this crazy, crazy world. I feel like part of the reason I'm so confused is that more often than not, I feel alone. Yes, I have amazing friends both here and my hometown, and I know that no matter what they will have my back and be there to support me, but somehow, I still feel thrown into the mix.

A couple of weeks ago, I actually mentioned this idea to my roommate. I explained how I don't feel at home in either location I've always considered a home, and how after I'm done with school, I have no idea where I see myself. Of course, I have a general idea of what I want to be doing with my time, but I have no clue where I want to be spending that time. I came to the conclusion that I don't have anyone I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with yet. I have yet to find my special person in the deep wide sea of whatever the hell this planet has to offer to us. What I consider a home is so much less about physical location, and more so about who I want to wake up next to for the rest of my life. Home isn't a place, it's the feelings your filled with when you are in the right company. I just haven't come across the person that makes any place feel like home, and for some reason (which may be something to delve into another time provided people want to hear about my crazy life) I feel like I never will, and that thought is utterly terrifying.

-m. xx

** Cover Image credit to myself- this is something I designed on one of those random websites you find yourself on one day.