you made me cry
scream
and shake
i'd see your name
and my heart would
beat fast

one
two
three
a n x i e t y

now
i am okay
i like my body
i like my smile
i like my laugh
i like my jokes
i like my music
i like me more than you ever did
i will treat me better than you ever did

you are ugly
for the things
you did
to
me

you are ugly
for the words
you said
to
me

you are ugly
for thinking
you could
control
me

i feel sorry
for whoever
decides to take you
for their
own

no
i will not "get over it"
i will not forget how it used to be
i will not forget that bad things
i will not forget how much you changed me
because i am different now
thanks
to
you

do i wish
things ended differently?
yes

do i get sad
listening to our songs?
yes

but
am i happier now
without you?
yes
very

thank you for teaching me a lesson-
that i deserve
so much more
than
you