October 18th 2018, Friday

I think I'm really getting a hold of this college thing. Going into college was pretty nerve racking. I've never been good at making friends, I'm still not great at socializing either. I truly think that's why I enjoy writing. I started a page on WeHeartIt and I believe things are also off to a great start. it's a place I can voice how I feel and people listen and appreciate my feelings. Speaking of feelings, I still miss him. There's not a day I don't think of him. Why is it so? its unfair that he gets to take such a big part of my life when he doesn't even think of me. Clearly he doesn't, since he went ahead and had a child. I love him but he doesn't belong to be. I don't think he ever belonged to me. There's so much more I can go on and talk about, including a couple new friends but I don't want to jinx anything. I'll keep you updated.

till next time, Emily.