Some days, I wish I never met you. I wish I didn't have to go through this pain of never being able to be with you. I talk to you everyday and it hurts knowing that I can't love you in all ways possible. You're like the air I breathe, I need you in my life and it makes me feel miserable knowing that there's only one reason we can't be together right now. I want a life with you. I want to live in this big house in Colorado with you and we can have dogs or kids or anything you want as long as I'm with you. I believe we can make it, because I'm in love with you and I always will be, but I don't know if you feel the same way. Even if I do marry someone else and have children with them. Even if I die at a younger age because of my disease. No matter what could happen in my life, even if you may not be in it, I will always be madly in love with you. You've shown me love and how to appreciate the people I have in my life and I can't thank you enough for being part of it. One day you will have a very beautiful and amazing wife that will show you that you are worth everything to her and she will give you the world and so much more, even if that person isn't me. I just want you to be happy. I guess this is me having to let you go because I don't know what else to do otherwise. If I don't let you go, it will kill me waiting for something that might not even happen and it'll hold me back, and I'll never move past it. Thank you for showing me love. You truly are the most extraordinary, beautiful, kindhearted man I've ever met. Thank you for everything, my love.