how many things i am trying so hard to be is exhausting. i want to be confident, i want to shake off other peoples opinions and do my best. i am holding myself back. I AM so dumb and am trying so hard to change it, little by little yet i still only do things if i think others will agree or like. and my biggest pet peeve is that i talk so much, every second i try to get a word in, make a snarky remark that no one laughs at. i am trying to hold my tongue and i scream in gym at myself and my team-mates. it helps so i donttalk as much because i havealready screamed i dont know why i feel the need to talk, i want to be liked

i would cry all the time if i wasnt at school i am overflowing