de·pres·sion
/dəˈpreSH(ə)n/
noun

a mental condition characterized by feelings of severe despondency and dejection, typically also with feelings of inadequacy and guilt, often accompanied by a lack of energy and disturbance of appetite and sleep.

synonyms: unhappiness, sadness, melancholy, melancholia, misery, sorrow, woe, gloom, despondency, low spirits, a heavy heart, despair, desolation, hopelessness, tearfulness,

origin
late Middle English: from Latin depressio(n-), from "deprimere" - 'press down'

substance abuse and mental services administration
1-800-662-HELP (4357)

national hopeline network
1-800-SUICIDE (784--2433)

national suicide prevention lifeline
1-800-273-TALK (8255)

national youth crisis hotline
1-800-448-4663

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