so I like this boy. Actually, I don't even know if I do or not. Me and this boy, we've been friends for about 3 years now and I've never actually thought of him before, in a way of more than just friends. Now that I do, slskdlsdjdkjbaj I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. So my friends know him and his friends know me. My friends, who are mostly girls, they kinda think he's like any other average boy who I SHOULD NOT be getting romantically involved with. This kinda made me think like did I really like him or did I just think he was cute?

Moving on, his friends are all loud outgoing guys and they like to play and joke around. Every single time they kind of "ship" me and that boy, I get really flustered. My heart is just exploding I CAN FRIGGING FEEL IT and my brain just launches into one of those make-believe storytime modes. Imagining what it would be like to date him and what not. Here's the catch, I went online (ikr I'm such a noob at this) and searched those "how to tell if a boy likes you" kind of things and well he hit a few spots, well at least I think he did. So he's a really funny, really smart and really nice guy and he never fails to make me laugh. I honestly don't want to say any of this to him because I'm really afraid that I'll ruin our friendship and I cannot imagine my life without him. Someone tell me what to do HAHA I'm such a lost cause :(