there a fear she lives in everyday ,the fear that one day everyone will know something she tried hard to hide it ,get close and you will see how empty she is ,losing herself everyday and she is still surviving she is still trying again just to get herself back ..and now she pushed everyone away cuz she got no energy for people again and she needed space ..she needed time to accept a lot of things that will tear her apart someday ...and she trusts GOD cuz he's the only one who can help her and find her a way to escape from all that ..she said "God is bigger than this and he will help me i trust in him"