Day 26: Write about five of your fears

Fears are something I have an abundance of. I am afraid of practically everything and nearly everything makes me scared. However, today, I will only tell you 5 of them. These are the 5 fears that will scare me so bad, I stay awake at night thinking about them. The 5 things that I hate the most and try desperately to avoid all together.

Dying alone

This has been a fear of mine for as long as I can remember. I have always been the loner type and have always been perfectly content not leaving the house or talking to people. Because of this, I know that if I were to move away from everyone I know, I would never make new friends and therefore, die alone.

Failing at Life

This has also been one of my biggest fears for a while now. I was raised that you go to college, graduate college, and then work 9-5 to pay your bills and support your family; however, I didn't want to go to college, did anyways, failed, and dropped out, and I don't want a 9-5 routine because it drives me crazy. Because of all of this, I am afraid that I will never find my own niche and fail at life. Failing at life includes a various amount of things: being stuck living with my mom, not having a job that isn't customer service in a grocery store, never having a family of my own, and not having the life I want for myself. So... this is a big one...

Messing up my Future Kids

Okay, so you see, I am pretty messed up mentally and emotionally, and I am terrified that I will do that to my future children. The last thing I want is to push my problems onto someone else, let alone my offspring. I feel like I'm so dark and messed up that my children will automatically be as messed up as me.

Death

Death should probably be on the top of my fear list, as I literally have a reoccurring nightmare that a grim reaper type guy comes to take me away to kill me; however, this list is not in order of most to least by any means. I am scared for me to die. I am scared for my family to die. I am scared for my pets to die. I do not handle death well, but it is a part of life and it terrifies me. The not knowing what happens after you're called dead is what scares me. What do you see? What do you feel? Is it all just black? There are no answers because everyone that could answer them are... dead. It's the not knowing the aftermath of death that scares me and keeps me awake at night.

Spiders

This one is a small one in comparison to the others I wrote about, but it is still a fear of mine. I am not so scared that it is a phobia, I won't pass out or break out in hives, but I will scream, run in the other direction, or think about setting the building on fire. In fact, the other day I woke up and saw a spider on the floor and ran out of the room, leaving the door open to allow it to escape, and my first thought was to set the room on fire.

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