I'm hurting and its so sad. I'm always trying to put on a strong front, but eventually, that front breaks. the tears that I don't want to fall, just falls so naturally. I barely feel them. wearing that fake smile everyday just doesn't seem right to me anymore. I'm forcing myself to be happy and it isn't working. I'm sad and my heart just swallows up my emotions, and I'm left there not being able to feel anything.

those feelings come back again at night, tears fall on my pillowcase like a waterfall, its drenched in the salty water that I can't help letting out.

I’m breaking and it hurts