I waited so long. I gave you so much changes. But you disappointed me every time. I didn't tell you, but I was slowly giving up. Giving up on you. I let myself think you would change. After every disappointment my heart begged my mind to give you another chance.

And every time my mind gave up. My heart reached its goal. Not knowing that it was destroying itself. But every time my mind didn't give you a chance, my heart ached. The pain was intolerable. You never saw what you did to me. What you caused.

And again, you are here. And I still don't know if I can trust you. I don't know if you still have a chance. Another chance to destroy me, to disappoint me.

It was so easy when you were gone. But you can't stay away forever. And you know what the sad thing is? You never knew this, until now. Because you never saw me. You never saw the pain in my eyes. You never felt the battle in my heart. Because you was focused on other things.

A letter I will never send.

Written by: bllackwater
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