to my greatest love,

you. you made me experience a roller coaster filled emotion.

you were there when no one else was.
you were there when i needed someone.
you were there to make me the happiest person alive.

but now, you're gone and i hate it so much. i love(d) you with all my heart and i can't stand it without you. no matter what i'm doing, i always think of you. it burdens me to know that you probably don't even think nor care for me.

i always listen to our song. it reminds me of all the good times we had. we definitely had a bunch of bad times but all the enjoyable memories canceled it out. i always pass by where you first asked me out and it burns my heart to know we'll never be the same again.

oh god, i miss you so much. you don't even know. i miss you to death and i hate it so much. i love you and you left. you left and i, now have a broken heart.

we were perfect, at least that's what i thought. i was my happiest whenever i was with you. i don't regret you at all. in fact, you were the best thing that ever happened to me.

but im sorry for wasting your time. im sorry for not being enough. im sorry that im not like one of those girls. i'm sorry i wasn't those peppy girls or those pretty girls. i'm less than ordinary.

how dumb was i to even believe you fell for a girl like me?