I'm 19 years old.
first year of university.
I'm supposed to have my life figured out.
I'm supposed to have a job and earn money to be independent.
I'm supposed to know how to cook, do the laundry and live on my own.
but the truth is I know nothing. I have no certainties, I'm still learning everything.
I do not know if the path that I've chosen for myself is the right one. I do not know if I'm making a good life for myself. I wish I had the answers to all of my questions, but I don't. I'm exploring, I'm constantly changing my mind, my perspective, I try not to judge anyone and to let everything have an impact on me.
I'm 19 and I don't want to be stuck.
I'm scared and stressed because these are the years in which I should plan my future but the truth is I don't know what I want my future to look like.
I have so many ideas and yet so little, I'm trying to figure out who I am, as a human being, as a thinking soul, but it's hard to do so when everyone is expecting so many certainties from me.
I can't do that.
I can't give certainties.
I want to evolve, I want to flow, I need to find what I'm passioned about because there's nothing that scares me more than living with no fire, no passion.
I need time for that, and I need people to understand that I can't be stuck with a person I don't like, myself, for the rest of my life.

p.s. sorry for English mistakes, it's not my mother tongue but I felt like it was the best way of expression for this.