back then, when i was so lost, i couldn't do anything but leave.
and i'm sorry i left and now
you're the one who's lost.
i ask you "how did your heart change that much in a year?" but i know it's me who changed.

because my kiss tastes bitter now and i smell like cigarette smoke and sadness.
clouded eyes so you can't tell i'm afraid, mascara on my long blond lashes so you can't tell i didn't sleep.

and when i came back, we were in love for some time.
but now, we're both lost again
and i can tell you smell like sadness too.

now, you're the one who's gone and i'm here,
with unbrushed hair and bloody lips.

when all i wanted was to
keep you tight.