Why?

Why do I let your words affect me?
Why do I put myself in this corner?
In this darkness to fend for myself alone?
Where’s the hug that I need?
Why don’t I have that one shoulder to cry on?
Why can’t I figure out the love that is missing inside me?
Why do I depend on you for a piece of happiness ?
Can you tell me why?
The tears I let fall
The pain i keep contained
I release to no one
Barely to myself
Why ?