I'm listening ''no tears left to cry'' right now, in the momento when i feel like shit. I don't know how to handle these feeling that i am having.

I make my best effot for be a good person, good student and a good familiar, and i just can't get anything.

I don't want this life, I don't wanna live anymore. I know that this is stupid, but this is me, and i don't give a shit what somebody says. Everybody says: ''don't worry, when you least think, all your whishes wil happen''.

But tbh, i think that never gonna happen.

Why cannot I just be happy with my life?