Sometimes I feel numb to the feeling.
I sit on my bed and stare. There is nothing I really stare at, I cannot even focus my gaze.
I feel guilty about feeling numb, especially when you come around. Normally I would feel happy about your appearance. But now I am just empty. No feelings. No reactions.

It took a while for me to accept that this happens. To be honest, I am still working on it.
But I learned something very important:
It is okay.
It is okay to be not okay sometimes.
Everyone has a bad day from time to time. And you may have a bad week or a bad month or even a bad year, but trust me, you do not have a bad life.
Do not lose your hope.
You are strong.
Live on.