Hey everyone,

I turned 19 this week and if I had to shortly describe the past year, I would say it SUCKED. So I wanted to make a list of (little) things I want to do to make chapter 19 in my book of life better than the previous one.

Let's get started

1. Move

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I was born and raised in a small country in an even smaller town that never felt like home to me. So I want this year to be the year that I finally leave and move to a bigger city.

2. Travel to London

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For the ones who have read my first article know that I want to visit London ( or more specifically; Blackfriars bridge). So this is (hopefully) the year that is going to happen.

3. Photoshoot with my friends

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So. I got a photoshoot from my best friends for my birthday. The only problem is, I want to cry and puke at the same time at the thought of it. The goal is to be able to do this without having a panic attack and be able to enjoy it.

4. Saying Yes for a day

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No is something I say to a lot, so I want to see what happens when I do the exact opposite. I've read a book where they did this (yes I know, books are not real but who knows right?) and they had an amazing night so hopefully I will have a day to remember.

5. Give a stranger a compliment

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You never know what someone is going through and a compliment (even a small one) can make someone's day. And in a world where people judge themselves and others, I like the idea of spreading some love.

6. Going to college

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It's my dream to eventually become a professional stylist and work behind the scenes of movies/tv shows or photo shoots. And the first to reach this goal is going to college.

7. End the circle of negative thinking

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I want this vicious circle to finally just end. And maybe this method will work. It is at least worth a shot, right?

8. Overcome my depression

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Depression is something I am probably going to struggle with for the rest of my life. But I am hoping and praying that I will finally crawl out of this dark hole, come up for air and at least see the light at the end of the tunnel.

9. Donate blood

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I think for myself it is a small sacrifice to give something I have enough of to someone in need and help them get better or might save their life.

10. Stop being shy

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Talking to someone and keep a conversation going scares the bejesus outta me and I completely suck at, let alone if that someone is a stranger. At those moments, all I want is to crawl into a dark corner and disappear. I want to try and work on that and hopefully be able to meet more people and expand my friend group ( god knows I need it).

11. Sleeping under the stars

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something about the stars has always seemed so magical to me and I want to take the time and enjoy them for one entire night.

12. Taking pictures

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The thought of seeing the world in a different way fascinates me. I want to be able to capture the beauty that surrounds me.

13. Getting my drivers license

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I have fear of failure. And if I think too much about the tests I get an anxiety attack. However, I know that I am gonna have to do it at some point to gain more independence.

14. Dancing in the rain

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What can I say? I love dancing and I love rain. Simple as that.

And last but not least
15. Be able to genuinely smile

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I can't even remember the last time I was actually happy. So hopefully this year will give enough reasons smile again.

These are just a few of the things I want to do this life year.
If you've liked it, there might come a part 2.

Let me know what's on your bucketlist.

Much Love,

here are my previous articles if you want to check them out.