The boy
He was just that boy, who I have been seeing almost everyday...
Thinking how he would never, ever notice me...
He did, it was him who started it...
We talked and talked and talked...So many days in a row...
Thinking that, he could be the one, the day I met him...I was in love
We were together more and more, I was thinking that he could actually feel the same...
Wrong
I was the first one, who started talking everyday, I didn't know he got bored of that...
The days were longer, feeling lonely everyday
...His ignoring was getting worse...
Months flew by also my feelings did...
Last time
Hey..Are we gonna talk someday?
I don't know, he said.
That feeling my heart started to beat again.
We talked again more and more...
Pause..Again and again and again...
Last summer, it felt like love...For him more of a friends with benefits, being naive person...
Holding hands.
Hugging.
Touching each other.
It felt nice...But again it felt worse, he was getting away again...
Months went by...I finally got rid of it, those stupid feelings, messing with my life..
"Hey, I've been thinking about you..I never noticed how much you were special to me, till I lost you.."
Blank feeling, the numbness filled my body..
Nothing.
No, I won't let you mess with my life ever again.