everyday I wake up and worry about how I will go about my day being the only person I can be, myself
I can't be anyone else and I know that but I still find myself impairing myself to others because they are simply "so much prettier than me"
I give up often on trying to act confident in myself
I am not confident, im insecure about every little thing on my body
people ask me whats wrong, why I look so mad or depressed or pissed off
im not but then I suddenly become that exactly because that is what I appear like
I wish I looked a certain way and not the way I look
it is hard to have self confidence and just love who you are
you ask people for help, they try to help you but all they say is that it is all in your head and to just stop thinking that way about yourself
its not that easy, I can't and you don't understand.