Future
Something so scary. Something so mysterious. No one know what it will bring. Don’t try guessing because you won’t anyway.
I feel this pressure… people ask “who you want to be?” or “where you see yourself in 5 years from now?”. The thing is that I don’t know. I’m drifting somewhere between sleepwalking and actually living… lately the last one is rlly hard for me.
I can’t sleep and I can’t eat. I can’t focus on anything. My head seems so heavy and my thoughts are cutting my brain from the inside. Thousand lil thoughts.
What I want. What I need. What I have.
Nothing … everything
I don’t want to talk to anyone. They don’t rlly care. They ask how you feel but they don’t rlly want to know. They will judge you and it doesn’t matter if it’s your family or your friend. Eventually they will judge you.
But somehow in this darkness I see light. I won’t let them break me. I won’t let them destroy my dreams. I don’t want to be another looser just existing. I want to be alive. I want to have my very own life and I want to do it in my way.
