i don't know if i am weird to feel that , or even weirder to just talk about it ; but :
how come that every time sadness hit me i always get the feels that i'll never be able to be happy again,
and too often it gets to the point where i start realizing that i've never really been happy
tho every time i get happy the butterflies in my stomach screams "that sadness will never get to you , and little did i know ; i did not feel sad in the first place !