When I was a little girl one of my favorite things to do was watch The Little Mermaid. And I'm not talking the whole movie...

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just certain scenes.
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Scenes that i felt involved Ariel, Eric and what I saw as their love for each other.

I suppose that made me romantic at heart from a young age.

But what can i say...

I was in love with the idea of love.

And in someways, I think I set myself up for having unrealistic expectation of what being in relationship truly is.

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Because my idea of love and romance has always been something that most guys aren't willing to meet. You know?

Maybe it's the guys I "hang around" but from what I heard and seen, guys my age don't value relationships. Period.

Even with knowing this, I still hear and see my friends in relationships, telling stories about the guys they're talking to or have talked and I think to myself...

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How come I can't have a relationship like them? Is there something wrong with me?

And I know you shouldn't compare yourself to others but it's hard when everyone around you is with someone (or has been with someone) and you haven't even had your first kiss yet.

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I'm not jealous of my friends, in fact I'm the first one rooting for love and loving relationships (healthy ones at that).
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If anything I'm more envious of the relationship than the actually people in the relationship.

But from hearing the horror stories of teenage romances, seeing how heartbroken relationships leave people, hearing how guys speak about girls, and seeing how those same guys treat the females they're in a "relationship" with, you would think I won't think twice about not being in a one.

But maybe that the problem...

I think as I've gotten older I've started to confused love and romance for relationship.

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Because you don't have to love the person your in a relationship with.

If I'm being really honest, the word relationship is just a title at the end of the day.

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You and whomever your in a "relationship" with define what the "relationship" is.

So I guess I find myself wanna not necessary a relationship, but a connection with someone.

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Someone I can vibe with, talk to, and do stuff with.
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Someone I can be my authentic self with.
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Someone who genuinely cares about me and I them.

And if an innocent friendship turns into something more...

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than so be it.

Until next...

Love, Smiliez

In the mean time, for all my romantics at heart , check out my While We're Young Collection,
or have a look at one of my other articles.