When I was a little girl one of my favorite things to do was watch The Little Mermaid. And I'm not talking the whole movie...
I suppose that made me romantic at heart from a young age.
But what can i say...
I was in love with the idea of love.
And in someways, I think I set myself up for having unrealistic expectation of what being in relationship truly is.
Maybe it's the guys I "hang around" but from what I heard and seen, guys my age don't value relationships. Period.
Even with knowing this, I still hear and see my friends in relationships, telling stories about the guys they're talking to or have talked and I think to myself...
And I know you shouldn't compare yourself to others but it's hard when everyone around you is with someone (or has been with someone) and you haven't even had your first kiss yet.
But from hearing the horror stories of teenage romances, seeing how heartbroken relationships leave people, hearing how guys speak about girls, and seeing how those same guys treat the females they're in a "relationship" with, you would think I won't think twice about not being in a one.
But maybe that the problem...
I think as I've gotten older I've started to confused love and romance for relationship.
If I'm being really honest, the word relationship is just a title at the end of the day.
So I guess I find myself wanna not necessary a relationship, but a connection with someone.
And if an innocent friendship turns into something more...
Until next...
Love, Smiliez
