Your first love is everything. because essentially it is your first everything. They introduced you to that feeling you longed for, the one that so suddenly and unexpectedly was building inside of you without any warning. That feeling you didn't recognise until it was gone, or maybe you did realise, but you never expected it to go. They made you love them, and they loved you back. For the first time in your life you knew what it was like to feel complete, to need somebody and to feel pure happiness, you felt a feeling you never knew was possible. A feeling like nothing in the world could ever dull your happiness again...

But then the one person who showed you your first everything, continued on that path and decided to show you what your first heartbreak felt like to. That exact moment. The moment that even after months or years have passed, you can still bring yourself back to it and feel the pain all over again. The moment where the world goes silent, and all of a sudden for the first time you feel yourself fall.. but you don't know how to get back up. you replay every moment in your head, from the moment you met to the moment he said he just couldn't do it anymore... "What's wrong with me?" "Why am I not enough for him anymore?" "What did I do wrong?"...
The pain of a first heartbreak hits you harder than the sudden feeling of falling in love. and for the first time in your life, you don't think it's going to get better. You wake up, you remember what happened and the tears automatically fall down your face without warning. You wish you never woke up, and a lot of the time it's because you were with him in your dream, and you were happy. But then you wake up and realise that you're not.. and you honestly feel like you never will be again. You waited so long to feel the feeling of love, maybe you were like me and were beginning to question whether it was even possible for you to love someone before, because you tried so many times but just never 'felt it'. And then all of a sudden it's gone.. and apart of you doesn't want to feel love ever again, and the other part of you wishes you never did in the first place. you can't look at another guy without feeling resentment inside of you, because they're just not him. You get angry when another guy approaches you, because even though you may not technically be 'taken', there's no way your heart is ready to give anything to anyone else. Because he took it all when he left.. the love, the happiness, the light in your life, the feeling of completeness, all of it. And you wonder how you were ever fine before them, because the thought of being happy without them seems impossible, and for a little while, it is.

you cry, you scream, you lose your breath, you fall to the floor.. you reach one of the lowest points in your life all because of that first heartbreak... that first love gone wrong, your first everything.

My heart goes out to anybody who has felt this kind of pain, my first heartbreak is still quite fresh and i know how unbearable and destructive the pain can be, trust me, I do. but reading quotes and articles i can relate to on the topic of love and heartbreak helps me to realise I'm not alone and that it's okay to feel this way. and I hope everyone who's going through something similar recognises that too.
But i promise more than anything that if you hold on, you will get better, things will always get better. It's not going to be easy, it's gonna be tough, and there will be time where you fall down, but just remember to never stop getting back up.

I'm considering writing another article soon on how to move on, let go and cope with heartbreak and another one on self love. Please let me know if you like this article and if you'd like me to write more. Also any feedback on this and any suggestions on what to write about would be really appreciated.