The few days before december 31st 2017, I kept telling myself that 2018 would be different. I told myself it was gonna be better. The first two months were pretty shit.

I don't think it was shitty because of what was going on and the things that were happening - I was being a shit person, I complained about everything and didn't notice the little things that were good. When I realized that, I decided it was time for change. I did not like who I was, so I am trying to become a better person everyday.

I have started eating healthier. I have always wanted to be a healthier person and lose a little weight. I'm not starving myself, I am eating more fruits and veggies, and eating less of the unhealthy sugary and salty stuff. I've been doing it for a while and already feel a lot better.
I try to complain less, but it's hard to be honest. I have always been a pessimistic person so I would complain about everything. The complaining actually made me feel worse and I would overthink about things a lot. Plus, it didn't really make other people like me a lot.

I currently coudl really use some chocolate and sourcream nd onion crisps but we don't have any right now. It's not always gonna be easy, and I have cheat days where I eat my body weight in chocolate and complain about every single little thing. And that is okay! You can't expect yourself to be better instantly, new habits take time!

In short, I am trying to be a better person, a better version of myself.