It hurts....my heart, my body, my head, my brain, my hand, my wrist, my skin,... My knife is dirty and I don't know what to do. Everthing is going wild. My thoughts make my brain and heart hurt and they don't know what to do. He sees me, he talks to me, he 'likes' me, he touches me, makes me feel so good,.. But he is confused and doesn't know what he want. I want him here, now, in my arms, in my thoughts. I want everything about him. Yet I am sitting here with a bottle of wine and tears in my eyes. We do stuff, we talk all the time. But the last 2 days he has been gone. He doesn't talk. He liked my pic but doesn't text me back.....
I don't know what to do...