dear mental illness,

dear depression, eating disorder, borderline, ocd, social anxiety, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, adhd...
dear mental disorder, I want to tell you something.
You`re my best and at the same time my worst friend. You` were by my side since years, but I still don`t like you. You are here, in good and in bad times, always. But I am so sick of you, of you saying to me that I`m worthless, ugly, fat, unwanted, unloved, strange, different, a waste of space, weak, too tall, too short, too whatever....
But you know what? I know you`re lying, I know you are NOT right.
I am so much stronger than you could ever be. You do not control me, because you are not real, you only exist in my head but Imma kick you out of there, you hear me?

Dear mental illness... you make my life so hard. You destroy me, my mind and my body. You make me wanna hurt myself, or even kill myself.

But I know, that you are not real. You`re not alive. I am stronger than you.

I am beautiful, pretty, perfect, worth living, strong, loved, wanted, unique and I do not deserve this pain.

I know I can`t just let you go, because you are a part of me, and you will always be. You will follow me... and you will make my cry all night long. But there will be days where you have no control over me. There will be days where I WILL BE HAPPY.

I know you want me to see dead. But I give a shit about these suicidal thoughts and I will keep fighting until you will fade... and you will fade...

dear best friend, I am stronger than you.

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

so... this was kinda a different article. It is about mental illness and I hope you liked it and I could encourage you a little bit. And yes I know it sounds easier than it really is, to keep fighting. But stay strong. You are so beautiful.

This world would never be the same again without you. ♡

(let me know if you want more of these..)
stay safe, xoxo