Hi I don’t know if you remember me, but I’m the girl who fell in love with you from 1,850 miles apart... the girl who prayed more for you than herself, the girl who went through a painful miscarriage and numerous of feelings, the girl who motivated you throughout a wonderful experience, the girl that you promise to love endlessly, the girl that you supposedly wanted a happily ever after with... yes that's me..’remember me? I so often wonder about you and how is your life settling in... I have to admit I haven’t been able to move on ever since you did.. I still cry myself to sleep every night and I try to be strong throughout the day, but to be honest it hurts. Loving you made me stronger but sensitive, made me happy but lonely, made me a fighter but heartless... thank you...

I loved you and I love you still, how stupid can I be to share this with you when you’re pretending to be happy? Stupid me for interrupting your act.

I often ask myself what did I do wrong, what was it that you needed? Even though we were miles apart I still went out of my way to please you and I guess that wasn’t enough. I know I wasn’t the perfect lady but damn I try.

Now that a few months have gone by, I finally understood that you didn’t need gifts, surprises, support, motivation, long talks on the phone... YOU NEEDED my presence, my love, attention, and encouragement from up close and I failed to see that because I was too busy building a life that would benefit us in the future.... for that and many other things I TRULY APOLOGIZE...

I know that your top goal is to make your mom proud and re-paid her everything she has done for you as a super mom and while you were busy saving the world and making everything work, you just needed someone to hold you down and comfort you, and for that, I APOLOGIZE...

I thought that by being a Super Woman I would help you be a better man, but I was mistaken because in my process of being superwoman I forgot the most important detail such as compassion. I APOLOGIZE.

As a woman I am, as Human I am.. I Apologize because I didn’t realize that I was breaking you down while you were trying to build yourself up!

A few months have gone by and probably you are living your best life and I don’t blame you. I want to wish you happiness and much success but I rather am the one that’s next to you and not the one behind you.

I know that you probably appreciate her and I understand...

If you ever read this just know that I miss you and I would love to have you back. I know that at times you miss me and that's great but don’t fight the feelings, fight for us...

Thank you for making sense, Thank you for teaching me A valuable lesson, Thank you for coming into my life... THANK YOU!!