Previously I wrote an article (Which I got amazing messages from you guys, still really happy about that) but it was only stepping one foot into my future that I plan to carve for myself.

I come from a specifically strict family who I know want the best for me, but honestly their decisions on my future cause me so much personal confusion.

Even after writing the previous article, Happiness still seemed like a struggle. Was it my motivation? Was it that I still was not trying?
If I'm being honest, I am horribly afraid of time. Time never stops or waits.

🎀  𝐻𝑒𝒶𝓁𝓉𝒽  🎀
But you know what troubles me the most? Do you want to know what stops me in my tracks every time? Fried food.

Every time I think about it the only thing that crosses my mind is "treat your self". Honestly, that has got to stop. I feel like the only thing that changed in my health is that I take the stairs instead of the elevators... sometimes. I forget to at times.

But at least I have one thing going for me. I hate sweets. Anything with sugar on it makes me want to throw up. And that means I never crave chocolate or cake. Or chocolate cake.

what I need is a plan. Whenever I see posts about health or controlling your weight I save it faster than my ability to make depressing jokes.
Thing is I forgot about them. What do you suggest I do?

・゚  🎀  𝒞𝒶𝓇𝑒𝑒𝓇  🎀  ゚・

I know what my career should be and I know what I want to do and how to possibly do it but I have no motivation to actually do it.
When I actually sit down and do it, I enjoy it. But I don't know why I feel so lazy about it.

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I have been constantly sad whenever I'm left alone, But I don't want anyone with me. I have been asking... Friends... to leave me be but feel sad about it right after. I get over that certain feeling fast because I enjoy my solitude. Is what I'm doing wrong? It's probably not. Some people would tell me that. Thing is, even if it was a bad thing, I don't think it would stop. at least not until I find some decent people I'll consider friends. The friends I know now are fine but I don't consider them friends. More like co-workers. And it's not even a job.

And that's what I have been feeling lately. baby steps.

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